Sunday, October 10, 2010

A STORY OF SHE chapter 3

CHAPTER 3
I’m sure I can fly now, through the night
Over the sea, over the mountains, not worrying about daily life

I was eating at the back of the class with Kaela when a girl, who I know as Kaela’s friend, came to us with teary eyes and sobbing a lot.
“I’ve been dumped by my boyfriend! And he even said that I’m ugly, penniless, and desperate! ,” she suddenly tell her story, and then she cried. Heh! Just another man’s doings.
I give a sight at in front of the class. A group of man bullying a girl. All man are the same!
“ Why did he says that? He’s a good guy back then right? Isn’t yesterday you told me that he said he love you? ,” Kaela said. That girl nodded.
“Yeah but… but that’s yesterday! And he dumped me just now! We broke up… ,” that girl said.
“ What a heck is this guy? His love only last a day? What a jerk! ,” Kaela said. That girl still sobbing. A give a long sigh.
“ What a big fuss about a guy actually? Just forget them. All men are sucks! Getting involved with them are just a waste of time,” I said. Both of them look at me instantly.
“ Of course man are important! We’re 19, we need to start finding some one to be our future husband in the future now… ,”that girl said. I give an indifferent face to them.
“What…is finding the ‘future husband’ thing is really important, huh?,” I said. I’m not even focusing at their face when talking. I’m not into this topic, actually….
“ Of course it is! We have to get married, sooner or later,” she said again. I sighed.
“ I don’t care much about married. And I don’t really mind about not getting married. Its better to have a life without a man, for me,” I said. Both of them silence for a while.
“ What are you? A gay?,” that girl ask. I laugh. I look at her.
“ Gay? Nonsense! .”
“ You said that you don’t mind have a life without man,” she said.
“ So? I dint say that I’m a gay, right? Hmm… But I think I don’t mind it, if I can live without man…,” I said. Nah… I’m just joking. I’m still a normal girl, after all. Just I don’t want to mess my live with a guy yet. But I don’t now when will I’ll be able to accept a guy in my life….
Both of them are quite shocked with my words. Well, I think every girl will have the same feeling if they heard what I said just now…
“ But don’t worry. I’m still a normal girl,” I said. They seems a little relieved.
“ I’m going to throw up these rubbish first,” I said, pointing at the plastics of breads on the table. And I walked away, leaving them with curiosity about me… Hmm…should I convince them more? Nah…I think not. Its up to them to believe me or not. I don’t care. I’m fine with myself!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

A STORY OF SHE chapter 2

CHAPTER 2

Hey…
I’m happy
Probably because
I had you
With me


I open the door of the small house in front of me. It not as big as others house but this is my house, the place where my mom and I live. The place where I grown up.
I put my shoes at a shelve behind the door and entered the house.
“ Mom, I’m home… ,”I said. A woman that looked around 40’s came out from the kitchen. That’s my mom.
I went closer to her and give her hug. My beloved mom! She replied my hug and gives me a kiss in the forehead. She smiled.
“Welcome home princess. I’ve just finished my cook. Come, let’s eat together ,” she said. I nodded and I followed her steps to the dining table.
“ How’s class today? ,”she asked while we are eating.
“ Nothing special… It same as always, I think. But please mom… Don’t ask about the school during eating… I just want to spend my time eating with you mom… ,”I said. She laugh.
“ Okay then, baby… ,” this time, I laugh.
“ I’m seventeen, mom! Big enough to be called ‘baby’ and I’m not a baby anymore mom! ,”I said. She smiled.
“ Leorna, for me, you are always be my baby, my honey, my precious… You are everything to me, princess ,” she said, and softly smiled at me. I turned down my head and smiled. My tears nearly came out. Mom…
“ Thanz mom,” I say, and continue eating.
I love you mom! Even I don’t have a father with me, I’m happy… Probably because I had you with me. You are the best mother ever!

A STORY OF SHE chapter 1

CHAPTER 1


I shouldn’t put up a sorrowful act and expect people to understand
That I was I victim because of it
Tears do not end a sin
We have to carry it with us through




I was 5 when the person called ‘father’ went away from my life. I don’t even know why he left us. It has been about 12 years now and I still don’t know the reason why he left. And I merely remember how his face looks like. The only thing that I remember about him is the cold words that came out from his mouth that said; ‘ It was the biggest mistakes in my life to have a life with all of you’. And the sight of mom crying besides me.
Yup. 12 years have passed. I’m now a 17 years old girls who live with my mom who are often sick. I still able to look after her, even I’m alone. I don’t mind it at all, because she was my mother, after all. She gave her all when growing me up and I guess its my time to look after her. And I love my mom the most. I’ll never left her alone, like what my father done to her. Sometimes, I wonder if I can call him a father, after all that I’ve been through. But my mom insist me to call me that so, I keep calling him with that title even my heart don’t feel like it. Well, it’s mom’s request after all…
“Hey, what are you thinking? You seems lost in your own world! ,” a voice from a girl makes me comes back to the reality. The cute girl with long straight hair is in front of me. It’s Kaela, my friend.
“Nothing,” I said.
“Really? ,” she ask me again. I nodded. She sighed.
“Okay then… But even if you have problem, I don’t think that you’ll tell anybody about it, right? ,” she said. I smiled at her. That’s true. I’ll never share my stories to others. For me, I don’t want sympathy from others. I hate being sympathized.
“Well, you know me… But don’t worry, it’s really nothing. I just spaced out a little,” Kaela give a slight sight at me.
“Yeah, whatever… It’s good enough to see you smiling in front of me. You didn’t even give a smile to others. Always with your ‘serious-mode-looking’ appearance. That’s why the junior don’t dare to talk or even give a ‘hi’ to you. Also with that indifferent face like you don’t have any emotion at all… ,”she complained. I laugh.
“Am I that serious? But I think I agree with the indifferent face. Well, I don’t really mind people calling me person with no emotion. Emotion just make us weak ,” I said. Kaela stares at me, and sighed.
“I really can’t understand you Leo. Even I’ve been your friend since we’re like… form 1. Its four years now Leo,” I move my sight outside the class, to the birds on the nearby tree. I nodded.
“Four years and a quarter, since this is July… But it’s OK to not understand me, K. I don’t really mind being ‘un-understandable’ “, I say. She sighed again.
“Luckily I’ve get used of your ‘sharp words’ so I’m not taken aback by your words. But some one might get hurt from your word, Leo ,”Kaela said.
“ Its up to them to get hurt. But I don’t mean to hurt their feeling because it’s the truth ,” I say while continue looking to the birds.
Kaela seems to speak again but…
“ Kaela Rasyid, go back to your seat! Are you noticed that the class has started??!? And you too Leorna Harith! Stop spacing out and pay attention to the lesson! ,” the teacher has entered the class. I don’t even noticed that. Well, that’s just nice because I’m getting tired of hearing K’s lecture… Huarghh!!! Time to pay attention!